EP45: The Space Between Loss and Living | Permission to Change Your Life with Matthew Hillman
There is a strange, quiet gravity that shifts when you lose the anchors of your family tree. Suddenly, you aren’t just looking back at your roots—you’re looking at what you're leaving behind.
We often treat grief like a linear checklist. But in this episode sitting down with Matthew Hillman, a sudden family passing holds up a mirror to our own lives, sparking a raw, introspective, and surprisingly funny conversation about what it means to rebuild yourself from the inside out. From the chaos of restaurant kitchens to the grueling realities of the daily grind, we explore how changing the story you tell yourself can change your entire reality.
The Core Conversation:
Sitting in the Heavy Spaces:
How sitting at a funeral forces us to ask, “What am I leaving behind?”—and the final words of a grandmother that sparked the courage to leave a safe, unaligned world.The Exhaustion of Doing It Alone:
Unpacking the crushing belief that we have to solve every crisis entirely on our own, and how a single moment of honesty shatters isolation.The Things We Leave in the Dark:
A deep dive into the hidden, unexamined parts of our identity we hide away because they are messy, and the radical freedom of letting them into the light.
We wrap up this episode with a mutual pact and a literal permission slip to live. If you've been waiting for a flawless, non-existent roadmap to step into a new era of your life—this is your reminder to stop waiting.
00:00 Reflections on Loss and Ancestry
09:07 Confronting Impermanence and Self-Reflection
17:24 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Change
26:17 Navigating Life Choices and Personal Growth
34:24 Navigating Career Choices and Personal Growth
39:30 Finding Joy in Unconventional Jobs
46:16 The Thrill of Performance and Creativity
55:12 Embracing Imperfection and Authenticity
01:05:30 Permission to Pursue Your Passion
